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I love my wife and kids so much but their is this need to bee able to talk to my brother and sisters in person but its like a hopeless thing Im hoping I can. I have not talked to my younger brother and sister since I was 15 and it ripped my heart out when they stopped talking to me. The weeks, months and years that have followed have been so hard on me. Its like some one is playing a game with my hart that I know how its going to end. I have missed talking to them for so long and as life goes and I get older the pain of not being able to talk to them is unbearable. There are times I want to cry but I have cried so much that there are no tears left to cry. All of this because of things that I was forced to say as a kid that I can not take back. And Im sure they will not believe me. If I could take it back I would but I can not.